in His time

you know what they say, eh? hindsight is always 20/20. i have to agree. as cliche as it may be, it's really quite true. in the last week as i reflected on the past year i'm going to have to say that God's timing is always on the dot. never too early, never too late, it's always just perfect. i can think of two situations.

one was the housing situation last year. by the end of last year i really wanted to live with cru peeps in a "cru house" because i saw how fun it was and how ppl bonded. but also because i was really insecure about my friendships. i think i was basing my value and worth on my friendships with people. it was pretty evident in my blogs from last year. somehow housing and friendship insecurities were connected. i think i thought living with crusaders would cure the insecurities. it didn't happen, and i'm glad it didn't.

i've enjoyed living with my current roomies. they're fun girls, but more importantly God really used this 3rd year to wean me of said insecurities. i like that. now as fourth year is approaching (yikesers!) i'm moving in with Christine, Becky, and other peeps, "into a cru house" without that extra baggage. i love how He works. it's pretty much awesome.

second was the internship deal with cru. i realized this one sooner though. i think by the second week that we were in-country i was like "thank You Lord, for not letting me an intern". i definitely wouldn't have been able to handle it nor did i want to be an intern for the right reasons. spiritual insecurities.

do you know what this means? it means that i'm actually starting to learn to wait on Him. i didn't think it was possible....hahaha it's happening!!! not so impatient anymore. not completely patient. far from it, but definitely more patient than before. sweet diggity deal. i love how God changes me.