I've started many a sentence tonight.
Then deleted.
And then typed some more, and then deleted.

My mind is full of thoughts swirling around...

But my mental capacity isn't up to the task of putting them to words. Actually it's been quite feeble of late. So many grammatical mistakes in my tweets and posts. But anyways...

This is all to say:

I wanted to blog, but was too tired to write anything coherent so I wrote this instead.

Thanks for reading.

One of my brown friends needs to get married fast because I want to wear this without being too much of a poser.  (Pun not intended.)

So pretty!!!  Love being a girl.

This Is Why I'm Still Single

Tonight I spent 4 hours in line rushing the premier of the Black Swan at the TIFF.

In four hours I managed to:
1) Get someone kicked out of line because they butted right. in. front. of. me.
2) Almost get a scalper arrested because he was selling one ticket for triple the price.
C'mon man at least be smart about it if you're going to scalp.
3) Get interviewed by a reporter after stomping to the front of the line to complain, yet again that people were butting.
4) All in all raise a bit of hell.

This is why boys don't want to date me.
And the people in line agreed.

This is also why my boss once said, "I'm really glad you're a Christian [because of the things you'd do if you weren't.]

In case you were wondering; I took it as a compliment and was very pleased.

Oh and, no we didn't get to go see the film.

If I Do Move...

How long will it actually take me to become fluent in a new language being immersed in it instead of sitting in a classroom?

I hope I can pick up more than just one language.  Ambitious?  Yes.  I've always been one to bite off more than I can chew.

Even if I move to S. Asia long term (5+ years), and if I get married, I'd definitely want to come back to N. America for a white, in both sense of the word, wedding.

I don't think I'll miss Winter, but I'll definitely miss Fall.

I really hope HR will approve my application.

I am eagerly anticipating this upcoming November.  

Not because I want this year to fly by, 

but because there is something that is a "go" 

and I'm really praying that it doesn't fall through.

I really really want it to go through.

Visual Overload

1.  What is with the trend of bridal parties sporting fake mustaches on a stick?
I've seen this in quite a few shoots in the various blogs that I follow.

2.  I need a mood board to design the interior of my new room.
I'm thinking Alice in Wonderland meets French chic.
There is actually a paint colour called Alice Blue...

3.  Need to streamline blogs that I follow.
You know it's too much when your google reader stresses you out.

Mish Mash

* Sometimes, I'm like..."Why do things happen to me that are like scenes from a teen flick? WHY?"
* Being an amateur wedding photographer isn't the best thing for my heart at times, but sometimes it's a lifeline.
* Good, better, best? I'll take best.
* Laughing at oneself is a life skill must have.
* Sometimes when I have bronchitis, I'm scared to cough because I'm scared I'll pee my pants when I do. TMI? Too late.

An Open Blog Post to the World or Rather...

In the case of the unfortunate individual who may be mistakenly assigned as L.L's roommate at Winter Conference.

Please note:

That you might suddenly find your luggage in a different room from which you had settled into because...

I am the type of best friend who will get L.L. in some form or fashion, with or without consent, consciously or unconsciously to give me her room key, go inside, pack your luggage, move it into MY room, and move my stuff into yours with or without your knowledge and or consent.

That is all.

It's a Slow Process

At this point I am averaging two new words per Bollywood movie. And that's not even learning how to say them. Just being able to understand it. So at this rate.....I'll be conversationally fluent hearing wise...WHEN? Hahaha.

Man, I feel sorry for those that have to learn a new language as adults. I'm glad I learned 2.5 as a kid when I did.

Change

I want a new hairstyle. This is the one that I want, but it's going be a long time coming. Another year at the very least? Do I have the patience?

Read My Mind

~ "Yay for globalization."

~"There are downsides to having Bollywood soundtracks on your iPod. Like having to constantly to fight the urge to burst into song and dance when in public."
I was shooting downtown in the middle of Front Street on a median with cars flying by on both sides. It was tempting to pretend that I was in the middle of a Bollywood flick. Luckily, I don't know Hindi because by now I might be committed to a mental institution."

~"Mother-in-laws are scary, scary people in general."

~"Bacon."

~"CRAP. I think I left the oven on with the baked potato in it. Is my apartment still standing? (Mental image of oven exploding into flames) .....Well S.A. looks like she got stuff from our place before church so I think we're good."
The apartment was still standing, but the potato was not edible.

~"I wish my heart would catch up to my mind already. I hate the 18 inches from head to heart. Why does it always have to play catch-up in everything?"

~"We are going to finish this movie just to see the love story."
Me, alone, sans brown roommate, 30 minutes into Jodha Akbar, a Bollywood movie that lasted for a loooooooooooong time with TERRIBLE subtitles that were misspelled, mistimed, grammatically incorrect, and for the most part completely nonsensical. I guess my stubbornness comes in handy for some things......

STEAL

Four plays worth $396.79 for $49.

WHAT. A. STEAL.

A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to the Forum,
The Importance of Being Earnest,
Macbeth,
and
West Side Story,

Beautiful, sweet, romantic Stratford,

HERE I COOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMME.

I love dates with the Lord and James Dean the SLR.

It's a Record

In the past month and a half I've managed to accrue a grand total of EIGHT tickets. :(

The stereotype of a female Asian driver lives on!

Between Friends

L.L.: Why don't you watch the office?
Me: Because it frustrates me?
L.L.: Evangelism is frustrating sometimes, but you still do it.
Me: Evangelism is Biblical. The office isn't.
L.L.: How do you know? There was a Bible quote in it the other day.
Me: It's a Biblical mandate to evangelize. It's not a Biblical mandate to watch the office.
L.L.: Maybe it's in there.
Me: Well you find it and let me know.

A few minutes later...

Me: I'm going to blog our conversation.
L.L.: You should just watch another one.
Me: No, I refuse.
L.L.: You're just being stubborn.

I concur.
And will continue to be stubborn.
Smile.

Random Thoughts That Were Floating in My Head From My First Wedding Shoot

FYI: We got up at 5am and pulled a 17 hour day without any coffee. Keep this in mind.

* Do NOT forget the camera. Whatever you do, do NOT forget the camera.

* To Lydia: I'm just waking up...the pictures are getting better.
(This is 3 hours later.)

* I'm so hungry.

* Foooooooooooooooooooooooooooood.

* Note to self: if you are ever getting married, don't do an early morning wedding.

* Wow, there must be hundreds if not thousands of dollars worth of makeup in that little suitcase.
(That the make-up artist brought along.)

* I decapitated the groom!!!
(I broke the head off the groom cake statue by accident.....they glued it back on. Apparently it had broke before.)

* I can't wait to go to Starbucks for a coffee and a breakfast sandwhich.

* Note to self: lanterns are pretty.

* This is rather bittersweet.
(At the bride's entrance.)

* Thank God I can't understand French that well, I'd be so distracted from shooting.

* I hope I'm not blocking anyone's view.

* Errr....I hope I'm not flashing anyone. I forgot these jeans were low rise.
(I had to squat a lot.)

* Should've worn flats that didn't match the outfit. It's kind awkward walking around in these heels.

* I hate this lighting, I hate this lighting, I hate this lighting, I hate this lighting...
(I hate fluorescent lighting.)

* One word: ELOPE.
(I don't really want to elope, but during the middle of the day, I did.)

* Sleeeeeeeep.

* Mhmmm...McDonald's. I'd get a Big Mac meal and a Filet O'Fish meal. And fries. Mhmm...fries.

* Note to self: You'd have to do pictures before the ceremony for an afternoon wedding. Have a morning wedding, but plan in nap time.

* When can I get seconds?
(After finishing my meal at the lunch reception.)

* I'm impressed. My reading skills in french aren't that bad considering the little attention I paid in class in high school.

* Fall weddings are soooo pretty. Too bad, I'll never have one.
(Staff blackout dates.)

* If I had good lighting all the time, my life would be perfect.

* I can't wait to go to bed.

* I've still a loooooooot to learn.
(Pondering my pwnage by fluorescent lighting.)

* Should've been born Quebecois. They're loud, rowdy, and fun. I'd fit right in. Instead of being shamed for it.

* Sleep. I want to sleep. SLEEP!

Happy Birthday To Me

Yesterday my doctor gave me my next three months worth of antidepressants.

Thank you doctor and Jesus.

That was around $200 worth of meds. Hello!

The asian in me, is purrrrrrrrrring.

Stella, How I Love Thee

Stella, I love you.
I can't believe I thought that I could live without you.
You've been so good to me these past eight years.
Steady, loyal, and trustworthy.
We've been through so much.
Ups and downs.
Good and bad.

I shan't try to leave you again.
We'll stay together for better or for worse.
In sickness and in health.
I promise to take you to your regular oil changes so that God-willing it's more health than sickness.
Through recessions and booms.
The insurance premium is bound to go down next year when I hit 25. We'll figure something out.
'Til death do us part.
Hopefully not in a car accident.

I'm keeping my car.

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it...
Prone to leave the God I love...

......

Take my heart Lord. Take and seal it. Seal it for Thy courts above.

Hodge Podge of Thoughts

1. Free movie, free mints, and free popcorn make a good night.
Saw Precious for free at the TIFF last night. Also got two boxes of free mints. Enough to last me until TIFF '10. Plus a bag of free popcorn. Post regarding Precious to come in future.

2. Blogging is relaxing. I forgot about this. Yeah for freedom of speech.

3. "Boys are oblivious only when they want to be." - L. Low
True words. Approximately a month before I see her awesomeness.

4. Everyday needs a dance party.

5. The scent of Fall is in the air, and I love it because it makes me feel like I'm in love. There's just something about fall. Definitely more of a romantic season than Spring. Sorry Spring.

6. Am really liking iced teas. Looking forward to making a plethora of iced teas even in the winter. So far have made raspberry, and white blueberry team. Mhmm.....

7. Am really getting into Soviet and Afghani history, the result of watching the Trotsky and reading A Thousand Splendid Suns

8. Loving Google earth. Fun times.

9. Really need to get on that church membership application that I started, but never completed three months ago.

Temper, temper

I had naively thought that my temper had slowly dissipated over the years.

Nope.

Still there. Sigh.

Still got the RAWR in me.