it's official

i got accepted as staff with Campus Crusade for Christ today. :)

reconnected

i'd never thought i'd say this, but i'm grateful for facebook, and ultimately to God.

at first when facebook was catching on, everyone was extolling the virtues of facebook, accrediting to it the rediscovery of old friends. i have to admit i was jaded. with all the moving that i've done across state lines and across international borders in the past 12 years, i could barely remember the full names of some of my friends. there would be no way for me to reconnect with old friends. i'd have to make due with just adding present ones. or so i thought.

on a whim yesterday i decided to search for the names of some of my dearest friends from my youth. just for the heck of it. just to see if by any chance, they'd jumped on the bandwagon too. the friends that made such a lasting impact that i actually remembered their full names. so i actually found a few from my junior high!

but that's not the most extraordinary thing. i found my best friend from grade 3!!! grade THREE! i've always wished that i would still have friends that i've known from childhood, and now i'm reconnected to my best friend from grade 3! i haven't seen her or talked to her, or had contact with her in a decade at least. i'm just so excited and so giddy and just....jubilant.

this means so much to me. i can't even verbalize it. this is one of the things that i've desired the most. there were points in my life when we were moving around that i really resented God for tearing me away from my friends. i came to terms with it when i recognizing His sovereignty in everything, and now He's brought me back to my friends.

life is sweet.

an epic adventure

good fiction is very hard to find these days. there's almost a 99% guarantee that any of the books you pick up is smutty. it's almost sad when you do finish a good book because that means you'll have to trudge through ten more crappy ones to read another good one.

i just finished zorro, the newest book by isabel allende the author of daughter of fortune. what a swashbuckling adventure it was. it draws you right into the world of the 1800's, and sweeps you away.

i highly recommend it.

brain farts

you know the definition of the word you want. you can feel the meaning of it. you can describe it. it's on the tip of your tongue. it starts with..., it means this..., and then bleggghhh. your mind blanks. all you can think of is that four letter word that you've used 10 ten times in the last paragraph, that makes you sound oh so juvenile, uneducated, and redundant. the essay is left unfinished, scattered on your bedroom floor, while you pound out your frustrations on your laptop huddled in a corner of your room.

ok so the part of that last line was an exaggeration. for the most part i've remained relatively calm and collected while writing this critique that's due in 12 hours? five minutes have just lapsed between that last sentence and this one. my brain is farting again even while writing something as trivial as a blog. maybe blogs aren't so trivial. any hope that said brain will recover long enough for me to write something coherent to finish off the other half of that essay is in tatters. ok exaggerating again, but that line does sound good.

alright, truth be told, i'm trying to figure out if i have any talent in writing. it's another whim of mine. that and the fact that i realize that my brain farts are not caused by fatigue, but by a lack of vocabulary. i miss the days where i was forced to memorize vocabulary weekly. the nerd in me comes out. so i hereby announce to the world that i am going to start reading the dictionary.

cop out

i admit, i copped out. i googled free blogger templates. the impending winter was getting too gloomy for me so i thought i'd liven my blog a bit. i really do like the colours. my only annoyance is that the flowers which accompanied this template don't appear here! ay..woe is me. as for the links...i didn't have time to update them. sorry to all who use my page as a blog roll.

the "p" word

pride.

"Let us, at the very commencement of our meditations, admit that there is nothing so natural to man, nothing so insidious and hidden from our sight, nothing so difficult and dangerous, as pride."
~Andrew Murray

of late i've noticed a bit of condescension in my tone, an attitude of superiority, and an air of "sigh. why don't you get it?" usually paired with impatience... caused by short term memory loss.

i forget that different people take different times and different things to catch the vision.
i forget that some things are just new to people even though it might be "old news" to me.
i forget that people do things differently and have different perspectives.
i forget that i once was also inexperienced, and still am in many ways.
i forget that God and others have treated me with grace and patience, and i should treat others with no less.
i forget that i am far, far from perfection.

"He who grows in grace remembers that he is but dust, and therefore does not expect his fellow Christians to be anything more. He overlooks then thousands of their faults, because he knows his God overlooks twenty thousand in his own case. He does not expect perfection in the creature, and therefore, he is not disappointed when he does not find it."
~ C.H. Spurgeon

a processing post

the weekly blog post. i can't believe it's come to this. i'm on the brink of becoming an unfaithful blogger. one quote that lurks in the dark recesses of my mind goes something like "when you're too busy for the important things in life...then you're getting too busy." i think i have been getting too busy. so much that i haven't really had time this past month or so to sit down and do things that would rejuvenate me or that i enjoy. like blogging for example. my life's gotten to the point where i feel like i'm just swept along to one thing after another after another...so much that i feel like my life's not my own anymore. i'm just being carried along the waves of time. 'tis time for some restructuring.

mainly i think the culprit is that i haven't had enough "alone" time. alone time with God and alone time in general. i haven't been diligent in guarding down times. i keep on trying to squeeze in appointments here or there. better boundaries need to be set.

i am definitely an introvert by nurture if not by nature. i don't have a large need for people. it's more refreshing for me to sit here all alone in a big house filled only with the hum of my laptop than to be in a throng of people.

i think i'm going to have more coffee dates. definitely some way cool cafes in downtown guelph. i've only discovered it this year. for that i am sad, but at least i discovered it before graduation.

express post

this morning i expressposted my staff application to HQ in vancouver, and becky mitts documented it with my digicam. it's SO much fun living with b. mitts. we are truly the dynamic "azn" duo. :D ha!

here are the pictures.















the final copy. i finally finished it after working on the major bio questions for a week.















getting the expresspost envelope.















the cat's in the bag.

now we wait....and by we i mean "i", but it sounds so much better pluralized.