brain farts

you know the definition of the word you want. you can feel the meaning of it. you can describe it. it's on the tip of your tongue. it starts with..., it means this..., and then bleggghhh. your mind blanks. all you can think of is that four letter word that you've used 10 ten times in the last paragraph, that makes you sound oh so juvenile, uneducated, and redundant. the essay is left unfinished, scattered on your bedroom floor, while you pound out your frustrations on your laptop huddled in a corner of your room.

ok so the part of that last line was an exaggeration. for the most part i've remained relatively calm and collected while writing this critique that's due in 12 hours? five minutes have just lapsed between that last sentence and this one. my brain is farting again even while writing something as trivial as a blog. maybe blogs aren't so trivial. any hope that said brain will recover long enough for me to write something coherent to finish off the other half of that essay is in tatters. ok exaggerating again, but that line does sound good.

alright, truth be told, i'm trying to figure out if i have any talent in writing. it's another whim of mine. that and the fact that i realize that my brain farts are not caused by fatigue, but by a lack of vocabulary. i miss the days where i was forced to memorize vocabulary weekly. the nerd in me comes out. so i hereby announce to the world that i am going to start reading the dictionary.