roll with the punches

i think today i might have failed my first university final. it's true that you reap what you sow, and with stats i'm afraid that i didn't sow much. if i did fail the exam then that means i also failed my first university course. that possibility still stings my pride a little, but more than that it throws all of my course plans out of whack...and maybe my graduation plans too. scary. but what's done is done. i can either let it go or worry about it. so i decided to let it go because worrying's not a happy option.

then as i was browsing through the archives of Girl Talk i came upon a quote from C.S. Lewis:

"The great thing, if one can, is to stop regarding all the unpleasant things as interruptions of one's 'own', or 'real' life. The truth is of course that what one calls the interruptions are precisely one's real life- the life God is sending one day by day; what one calls one's 'real life' is a phantom of one's own imagination. This at least is what I see at moments of insight: but it's hard to remember it all the time."

how very true. along the same lines it reminds me not to put my life into a box. i.e. by this age i'm suppose to graduate, get married, have kids...etc 'real life' is not a figment of my imagination, but what God sends. each life is unique so i cannot compare myself to other people. i.e. so and so went to this school, got this degree, have this career, married this kind of person.

many a times i've "imagined" a life for myself, only to have to eat my words. (but in a good way!) never wanted to go to U of G. never ever wanted a B.A. never ever ever wanted to be a missionary. where am i now? U of G, getting a B.A., with the one dream of joining staff with Crusade and absolutely loving it. hahaha so i'm kind of wary of being adamant about things now especially the major life decisions. what did i say before? never joining canadian staff. and even if i did, never going to B.C. never marrying an azn guy. never marrying someone who's not at least 6 inches taller. for the record i'm retracting all of those statements...riiiighhhht NOW. never say never.

life's what God sends. anything's possible. i'll just roll with the punches.